pure happiness..does such a place even exist??

i know i say this over and over again, but i am never fully happy where i am..and this upsets me..

like don't get me wrong, i'm happy..i'm happy and thankful for everything i've got and i love my life..

but there always seems to be something missing..

it seems like no matter where i am, who i'm with..i always want something more..and then when i get that something, i want what i already had back..

erggg..it's a vicious circle that keeps me always wanting change..

for once, i juss want to be somewhere where i am fully content..somewhere i want to stay..

does such a place exist?? maybe..one day i'll find it..rite??

karma..it's the way to live

karma: the belief that a person's actions and conduct determines the person's destiny

i have always been a karma believer..and lately, i realized juss how important a role karma plays in life..

ok, so not every single thing you do determines what happens to you, but if you add up your good and bad doings, you'll see what i mean..

so here's a story: i am FORTUNATE enough to know a man, in his early 50's, who is the most strongest karma ADVOCATOR ever..he tells me these unbelievable stories of how karma has effected him..he practices karma RELIGIOUSLY..for example, today, a co-worker gave him a chocolate bar..and it juss so happened that it was a chocolate bar he was craving all week..now, you could say this was a COINCIDENCE, but at dinner today this man practiced karma by offering to buy dinner for another co-worker..well, it juss so happened that this co-worker later found out he had left his wallet at home and had no money..AMAZING eh? sure you could say this was another coincidence but this man, the karma believer, had no idea of the MONETARY situation..he was juss doing what his gut told him to do..that is the DIFFERENCE between karma and coincidences..karma is a belief..a belief that you follow..it's having FAITH that your actions will determine your destiny..

so ladies and gentlemen, that, is how karma works..what goes around comes around, so you can't juss sit around waitin for luck..

shopping: call it a girl thing..

with spring fully here, i figure since i'm gonna hafta be in school all summer(ugh), i may as well dress for it.. so i set a date, made a budget, listed out my must-haves and planned a super shopping spree

after 4 hours of shopping..i almost completed my list of skirts, sandles, tank tops and t-shirts..everything ended up blue or white..hehe..the only thing i couldn't find were cute capris..

it is actually quite exciting and i am almost jumping up and down as i am writing this..i haven't been on quite a shopping spree like this in a while so it was so much fun..

my new sandals are my fav new item..i am wearing them rite now!! they are the cutest little blue things in the world and the added bonus is that they match with 3/4 new skirts

call it a girl thing, but shopping excites me so much..i could spend hours trying on all the things i bought..can't waitttt til summer!!!

a whole new me..

Who: me
What: changes
When: now
Where: here
Why: cuz i need to
How: anyway i can