stuck on an escalator

the new becel commercial's got this man and woman going up on an escalator and all of a sudden the escalator stops..the man says to the woman "what do we do now?" and she replies "i guess we wait"..and so the two of them start screaming for help..

this was the funniest thing in the world to me when i first saw it..it's so absurd and crazy..yet it is totally realistic..

imagine being on an escalator with a million people at 5pm in a subway station downtown toronto when it suddenly stops..i betcha at least half those people would have a heart attack and not know what to do..

goes to show you how wrapped up in advance technology people are..haha..

and well, i know most people who saw the commercial wouldn't think much of it but it really made me laugh..then it made me think about how i was laughing at what the world has become..hmmmm..

"what if" vs "what is"

why is it so hard to forget the things you want to forget?? and why is it so hard to move on after something has happened??

that's life for you..things are supposed to happen..and then they're over..then you want to forget about them or just move past them..but you can't..you just can't..and know why? it's cuz a part of you is still clinging to it..a part of you doesn't want to let it go..you're still thinking, "what if this happened?" or "what if i had done that?"

well..we don't live in a "what if?" world..we live in a "what is" world..and what we see is actually what is..so there's no point in holding onto to that "what if" thought..so why do we do it? i have no idea..i guess there's just some comfort in knowing something could've/would've/should've happened..

i realized that i waste a lot of time wondering what could have been when i should be spending time being grateful for what actually is..there's so much to be happy about..so no more backtracking on the past and dwelling on things i could have done..it's time to face what is..

reminder to self

being miserable doesn't suit me..i hate it..so when i'm miserable i am grateful i have the people in my life to make that feeling go away..it makes me happy..i like being happy..

**thankful that people have the words to make me feel better..thankful that they care..

what's new???

new as in the present time or new as in something current..well it's just too bad i haven't got the faintest clue what is new..

by means of world affairs, i am completely up-to-date..i've been paying attention to the latest political debates and news of natural diasters..so i consider myself very well eduated on that level..

by means of a current affairs regarding people..well i would probably rate a 1/10..and the reason for that is the people..how can they expect me to know what is going on in their lives when first of all, i don't see them and second of all because they don't bother to inform me...

so perhaps this is a bit of a rant..maybe not..i usually don't rant..so maybe this is a rant..i don't know..but forgive me, i have been a little bit out of the loop..and sure that part is my own doing..but i have tried to keep in touch with these people..but seeing as they make no effort on their own..well, then all i can ask is what's new and hope they reply..

this is what being a "grown up" does to me..who knew having a full time job and living completely on your own could change things so much..

fresh starts

i love fresh starts..i love new beginnings..and i love changes

it makes me feel grown up..

and although i miss the past a great deal, embracing the present and future makes me a great deal happier..

my world..

it would be wrong for me to say that i am annoyed with the world..because i am not..i'm just annoyed with myself..

i've always been a determined person who has the ability to get what she wants..usually that is..

however because of some crazy reason (i'm sure some of you know what it is) there is a reoccuring situation i cannot control..with this situation, i always want to do something to fix it or make it better but i can't..i just can't..like something is holding me back..and i don't know what it is and it is annoying me..

it's gotten to the point where i cannot even make a decision because i am so conflicted i cannot grasp the whole concept of what is going on..and erggggg..stupid messed up feelings..what's happened to me??

i'm lacking in confidence and scared of something that doesn't really exist..

Happy New Year!!

here's to a brand new year..

-new start
-being independent
-only 4 months of school
-8 months of work
-my amazing friends
-my amazing family
-resolutions and goals