can i stay here forever..

i know this is old..
but some things never change..
the lyrics fit perfectly..
i wanna stay right here right now forever..
like nothing i've ever wanted before..
you have no idea..

listening to the song made me realize just how much i want time to freeze. it's been an amazing day, amazing week, amazing month, amazing term..

the lyrics:

through forgotten convictions
misplaced affections
i've been chasign after emptiness
trying to tidy up this mess
i swear i've been down this road before

as these mountains of doubt, they fade away
so for me this is beautiful
a brand new thought and a brand new world

can i stay here forever..

i've lost sight of what first drew me
to the love that pursued me
the joy that inspired my song
the friendship that was all i knew
the arms that i would fall into
seem miles and years from where i am today
i gotta get back to where it all began

the basics: laundry and cooking

i can't get the hang of cooking or laundry..i've set off the fire alarm numerous times this term by letting my eggs sit cuz the top wasn't cooked but then the bottom burnt to a crisp or melting plastic chopsticks by leaving them on a hot (but turned off) stove..

but it never occurred to me just how important it was to learn these essential skills until today..

i was in brantford visitng my landlord and she shows me around the house starting with the kitchen where i say that i don't cook..she gives me a weird look but continues..when we get to the laundry room, i say that i don't do laundry..she gives me a second weird look..

as i am leaving, she says she will try to make my first time away from home as easy as possible..and of course, i say "i haven't been living at home for over a year now"..and she exclaims "WHAT?? YOU DON'T LIVE AT HOME AND YOU CAN'T COOK OR DO LAUNDRY??" i laughed..

but now that i think about it..it's not that funny..she must think i am a completely incompetent person, overly sheltered by parents..and well am i??

NOOOOOOOO..and to prove that..i am gonna learn to cook and do laundry

i want...

i want it back

i want to go home for christmas break and then make everything magically good when i come back (like back track to a year ago)

i do realize that i can't always have what i want..because after all, i do have an amazing job that i wanted oh-so-badly and the experience that shall come with it will also be amazing..

BUT

more than anything..i want to be here next term..here in the loo..being at school, surrounded by the people i love, not being by myself in a strange city, not being away from people for over a year..

you have no idea how much i envy the prospect of just being here

(spins in circle)

maybe it won't be so bad? i dunno, i'll count my blessings..(1...+...???)

what a week..

-all the snow melted
=sadness

-fell asleep in class and my prof stopped class to wake me up
=most embarassing moment ever

-got silver nitrate on my hands
= permanently leaves black deposits on my hands

-superglued my hand to a paper
=hurt like hell

-saw a squirrel fall into a garbage bin
=made me laugh

-running into people i did not want to run into
=awkwardness

this week just sux