the affect of a name..

names truly have a big affect on a person..for instance...

christine:
-it's my name don't wear it out..
-christine sounds very formal and "professional"
-i only introduce myself as christine to like an employer or professor person
-when i respond to christine, i feel the need to act mature and sophisticated
-however, people who have known me since grade school will most likely refer to me as christine..and in that case, it feels normal:D

chris:
-the name i prefer these days..
-it's more casual, fun, short and sweet
-and i think it suits me better than christine
-thingy is though, when someone who has referred to me as christine my entire life all of a sudden calls me chris, it is weird

chrissy:
-i do not like this name
-the only person who calls me this is my sister
-it is too prissy, preppy, ugly, girly
-it does not work..do not call me chrissy

hm..this blog was pointless..i just thought of it cuz someone who usually refers to me as one name called me the other..haha..so, who am i to you??

"it's not getting what you want..it's wanting what you've got.."

i have the greatest friends and family in the whole world..they make me happy..i've always known this but this time around, i actually appreciate the fact that they are the greatest friends and family ever..this includes everyone from those who are around me 24/7 to those who whine and complain because i never see them to those who are miles away but call me up just to say hi..i heart you all..thank you for everything..

also for the first time in a long time i feel like everything fits together..it's like one giant puzzle and i've finally figured out how it's supposed to go..i like what i'm learning..last year and years before that i kinda felt like i was just learning for the sake of passing a class and obtaining that oh-so-prestigious BSc..but i've recently learned i enjoy my classes..and that may not seem so significant, but it's important to me that i no longer feel as if i'm wasting my time..cuz for once, what i'm supposed to do is something i love..

and so in a nutshell, i've learned that time fixes everything..for the past year i've kinda been in this little rut feeling as if it's never gonna get better and i'm wasting my time doing..tis was quite a confusing little period in time..but i've realized it just takes time to sort out things..it takes time to learn how to prioritize..it takes time to appreciate and want what you've got instead of just trying to get what you want..

so word of advice (even though i'm horrible with words)..when you feel as if everything is crashing down or that things are never gonna get better..THEY WILL..step by step, day by day..you're gonna make it some way..

the world as i see it..

1.it's november..1/4 way done 2nd year..one more month of classes

2.work never ends..labs, midterms, assignments..

3.weather: crappy weather (including rain) does really get to me as much anymore..maybe i am growing out of that..haha..

4.life is about doing things becuz it feels rite to do them..and when they stop feeling rite, you stop doing them..

5.the more i think of it, the older i feel..this makes me want to be old..be grown up..things get better as time changes

**i feel like i should elaborate on the last 2 items..but i don't know what to say..that's just life