ThE eNgAgEmEnT

this weekend was my sister's engagement party..being the maid of honour, i was obligated to say a little something for them..so here's how it went..(it's actually very long so i took out some boring parts)


As you all know, today is the engagement party also known as a traditional vietnamese Dam Hoi. So first off, i'd like to say a little congrats to Jason and Chau. Congratulations on the commitment, love, passion and life you have shared with each other.

A dam hoi is more than anything a traditional custom rather than anything religious. It is a chance for members of the extended family to be introduced and acquainted. It is also the formal announcement from the groom and bride to be that they have officially decided on a date for the ceremony and reception...

...So today you are gathered with anyone who shares the love you do for Jason and Chau. A group of people, practically strangers, all united because they have one thing in common...

...And as most of you know, Chau and I are quite far apart in age. So growing up she was more of a role model, mentor, older sister kind of figure for me. But lately, and i guess i mean within the last few years, i've felt like i've truly made a new best friend. Maybe it's just been because i've grown up a bit, but she and i have become really close the last few years. We've been able to share a bond i've never felt with anyone before...And I have never seen her more happy than when she is with Jason.

I can remember meeting jason for the first time. It was when he and Chau had biked from waterloo to guelph. And i was like wow, that must've been a pretty long bike ride. But then Jason tells me he's biked from waterloo to orillia before. and i was like whoa, that is pretty crazy cuz orillia is a 3 hour drive from waterloo. crazyness really is all it is. but crazy in a good way of course...

...So from the bottom of my heart, welcome to the family Jason and congratulations once again to Jason and Chau.


So that was it..over a crowd of 50 people with their eyes glued on me for 5 mins that seemed like forever..but it went well..(no rain)..and i didn't screw up too much..and so now i have a year to write another amazing speech to go..wish me..luck

and the new stresses of my life..

on thursday at 10pm-ish i decide i wanna drop inorganic chem..i log into quest and it tells me i can't cuz it will be under the minimum unit requirements..and so i start freaking out cuz the deadline to drop courses without them showing up on your transcript and refund was friday..so i send them an email and contemplate droping by the DE office tomorrow morning at the advice of a good friend (thank you so much raj)..and after spending the next few hours frustrated, i tried to sleep..then i called them early friday morning and they told me they would sort it out and everything would be fine..huge relief!
lesson#1: don't wait til last minute to do things

i had an interview scheduled for this receptionist position on friday but it was cancelled for some reason..boo..cuz i wanted the job, it had sweet hours and not difficult work..and then she calls me friday for another job position and calls back an hour later to tell me it was cancelled..so then to make matters worse my dad decides it'd be funny to scare me a bit and tell me she's a scamming company who has my SI number..and although it was just supposed to be a joke..my brain is filled with paranoia..
lesson #2: don't give out your SI number til you know you have a job

my sister flew home friday nite and arrived at the house at 3am in the morning..fun..hm..the next few days were mostly spent with the family planning the wedding and engagement party next weekend..this engagement party is turning out to be one of the biggest events i have ever planned..it's ridiculous, but i guess it's good that she is here to take over..
lesson #3:never argue with an overly tired, cranky, control freak female

work is ok..it's a typical part-time job so you could imagine my enthousiam towards it..but it keeps me busy and happy..
lesson #4: find something that makes you happy to do

so things are going well..kinda all of a sudden super busy, but nevertheless good..

what's up with me..

1. i have a job..part time work in retail at the local grocery/super store..it's been good..gives me something to do and a sense of being useful..

2. got in a habit of sleeping really late and waking up really late..it's quite bad and screws me up a lot..

3. found myself in a major discrepancy this week..two equally opinionate and stubborn people and neither of us willing to be the first to admit we're wrong..and where to go from here..that's a tricky question..

4. i hate this stupid weather..it is cold, windy, rainy, cloudy, and just plain yucky..it is may..it's supposed to be warm, sunny, and nice..

5. my sister is a control freak..her engagement party is next weekend and she wants everything to be perfect..however she is about 2500 miles away and that makes it hard to plan..so guess who gets to do all the planning..hm..i am not the greatest planner..i don't look into detail all that much..and my opinions are very different from hers..so in a nutshell, this engagement party is really stressing me out..i am trying to do it the way she wants but it is hard..and in the end all i get is her stressing out on me, telling me i did it wrong..erg..and i don't know what to do because obviously i am not her..and i don't know exactly what she wants..

6. i miss my friends..and this time i'm talking about guelph people too..everyone has different work/sleep/free time schedules..and besides the people i regularly see and hang out with, i miss the others..and not that i even have to mention, but i miss my waterloo friends wherever they are now..

7. i don't really have a 7th item but i always like ending on a happy note..so i will just say for now it's about 2 months and 14 days til my birthday..hehe..

how valuable is time?

i used to think time was so precious..and if only i could spare that extra bit of time, it would be great..but now it's as if i have an excess amount of it, and i'm just so sick of it..

what have i been doing with my precious time? well this week i continued my job hunt (with not much luck), went to toronto (mostly for shopping and visiting purposes), went to the courts a couple of times (tennis), hung out with people, taught myself some organic chemistry and cleaned (i've been cleaning forever and it seems to be getting more and more messy)..

so not that i've been wasting my time, cuz in a sense i'm just making use of it..it feels like it could be used doing otherwise and i'm taking for granted all the time i have now..

hm..i don't know..

job hunting

those two words are the most frustrating words in the whole to me right now..

earlier this weekend i was complaining to my parents that i didn't have a job..my dad's first words to me were that jobs don't grow on trees and if you want something to happen, you hafta do it yourself..so i was like, ok just hafta go out and apply to more places and actually be a little more determined to find a job..then my mom goes you're gonna hafta be a lot less picky too..and after they both laughed my dad asked me what kind of job am i looking for..and i said i want a job that is during the day, not repetitive and boring, not in fast food or a factory, fun, pays well and something i like doing..

and this time they both looked at me as if i was crazy..

errrrggg..i'm not really crazy in this sense, i just want a good job..but after 2 weeks of job searching, i'm beginning to think i DO need to be less picky..could be hard thing to do..we'll see how it goes..

Positive Outlook..

NOT lost in a mindgame called life..that's my new motto rite?

haha..well i'm slowly deciphering how life works and what's to become of everything..and in some ways it's been lots of fun..

someone once told me that somehow someway life always has it's quirky way of working out..and that's really one of the true things that have always inspired me..like sometimes you just don't have full confidence in the things you do..and you're like but what if it doesn't work out or what if you screw it up..but really, it was probably just meant to not work out or you were just meant to screw it up..because that's how life works..there's no real way..and it takes you on quite the journey to figure it out..but that's what experiences are..and in the end, somehow someway life always has it's quirky way of working out..

and with that note..i'm realizing i don't have to have an answer for everything..and i don't have to fully understand it..i just have to live it and have a purpose for what i do..even if that purpose is just to find out if it's right or not..it's a purpose:P

oh..happy happy happy

i love it when good news comes or happy things arrive..

hm..marks are up..and surprisingly enough, they are beautiful..so all that cramming and stress for exams must've been worth it cuz i'm loving the results..

laptop is now fixed and wonderful..no more stupid msn virus or slowness..yay for technology..and rogers technical help..

going to waterloo this thursday..mostly running errands..but should have time for quick visit..don't worry, i'll come for a proper visit soon..

decided to drop linear algebra and just stick with inorganic chem this summer..figure i deserve some fun and relaxation time after 8 long months of school..

now if only i could find a job..then nothing could make me any happpier..