Back in Waterloo

**My friend sarah is my favouritest person in the world cuz she is a cool dude and i came to kingston to visit her because i love her. I am devious. Amanda is cool. **Written in first person not by Christine

Well, it's been a whole week since i've been back...An amazing whole week..Wrote midterm on friday and left for home as soon as possible..drove to Toronto and waited at Union station for a half an hour delayed train..and finally got to kingston at 9-ish..Kingston was sooooo much fun..loved hanging out with sarah and amanda..playing "games", balloon contest, clubbing, freezing cold walks, shopping at ridiculously expensive stores, watching movies and OC and of course "sleeping"..tons of fun and wish i was still there

Being back in Guelph was fun too..hung out with some old friends, went shopping like every day, had a couple of interviews, finally saw Ocean's 12, bowling, and hung out with family...it was quite exciting and way too short..

Despite, the two midterms this week, calculus assignment, chem lab and other school related stuff, i am happy to be back...it's nice seeing everyone again and getting back to old routines...and there's less then two months of school left..should be great!

ReAdInG wEeK!!!

yay! in less then 10 hours, i will have written my last midterm before reading week...i then leave for kingston for 4 days...then go back to guelph...and begin the studying all over again for bio and sociology..it never stops...

i am in quite a weird mood tonite..not really studying or focussing..kinda just wandering...thinking..and just hanging out..and also, a little on the annoying side...thanx aneta for making me study..and herman for bringing me coffee..and maril for being awake with me..haha..it's been a fun nite guys..(i also killed my msn strike...didn't realize how much i love talking to some people..bily and his telepathic abilities..hehe)..and sarah for keeping me motivated..haha..if that's what you can call it..miss you

can't wait til reading week..should be lots of fun..hanging out with old friends and taking a mini breather from school..

*link to other blog at bottom of page..updated it a bit*

MiSsInG..

This term has been so overwhelming...so many things are different and i'm finding that i'm missing people and so much more..

-I miss being at home and i miss my parents and sisters a lot
-I miss hanging out with my friends back at home
-I miss being out in BC for the holidays
-I miss people who are away at coop this term
-I miss Guelph (not that waterloo is much diff, but i miss it)
-I miss the girls on my floor who i hardly see anymore
-I miss my house and my car and my room
-I miss hanging out with people and just having fun
-I miss hanging out with my guelph friends who are here
-I miss my friends away at other universities
-I just sorta miss everthing

BiTs AnD PiEcEs

I see a light in the sky in the warm sunshine
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
The worst is over now and we can breathe again
Turn a little faster the world will follow after
And the world is so beautiful tonight
My every wish and every dream somehow became reality

At the risk of sounding cheesy
Try as I may I can never explain
In all of creation, all things great and small
I'm closer to where I started
Lock the doors and leave the world outside
I won't put my hands up and surrender
I surrender to the strawberry ice cream

Clinging to a past that doesn’t let me choose
Desperate for changing
Cause these are the days, when all that i can do is dream
But I’m just fine moving forward
Completed my whole life
And that makes you larger than life

Completely incomplete
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
Standing on the edge of something much too deep
I wont let another minute go to waste
Sometimes I wish I could
never make a promise i don't intend to keep

There will be no white flag above my door
All day long I can hear people talking out loud
I've seen so much more than u know now
I can hardly catch my breath, i hope it lasts
Well, I guess you'll say what can make me feel this way?
So just give me one good reason

It's as if you've known me better than I ever knew myself
Deep within my soul, I feel nothing's like it used to be
But somehow I will show the world what’s inside my heart

WeEkEnD..and forecast of upcoming week

This weekend was pretty awesome...
Friday-went to swiss chalet (so good..huge pitcher of shirley temple), went to sobeys, got frozen yogurt and pizza, rented wicker park (Josh hartnett is sooo hot..but movie was a little odd)
Saturday-woke up at 11-ish, went to lunch, did some studying, had pizza for dinner, tried to sleep early but was awakened by a very late telephone call..
Sunday-went to hamilton for lunch, try to do some studying, also one week since i've been off msn..hehe, made gingerbread men..

This week is crazy busy week...
Monday-classes til 6:30, gotta start hardcore studying, happy valentines day
Tuesday-cramming starting for midterms..must focus, calc assignment due
Wednesday-chem midterm, bio quiz/test, classes all day
Thursday-physics midterm,
Friday-spectroscopy midterm..then kingston!!!

HaPpY LiSt

happy thoughts...ah yes...those things

happy#1: kingston in 7 days..c'est tres heureux...can't wait
happy#2: there is snow...je peux faire du ski..i love snow
happy#3: 6 more school days til reading week...yay
happy#4: midterms will be over soon
happy#5: get to go home...passer du temps avec ma famille & mes amis
happy#6: it's a brand new year

very happy things coming up...and also a happy thing, my withdrawl from msn isn't so hard now...although i miss talking to the people i don't regularly see:(...meh, i'll be back soon enough, not sure how long it will last...

so i'll leave it at that...think happy

Change

I've always liked changed...not saying that i deal with it well, just saying that i like it...i love learning, exploring, and living...and change brings all of that...i love little changes like buying new shoes or big changes like from elementary school to high school to university...

change is good in almost all aspects...and sometimes you don't realize how much you've changed until you take a trip back into the past...you learn so much without knowing it through change...you are who you are because you've learned to adapt with the changes in your life...and although change can be very hard sometimes, in the end, you manage to cope with it and it becomes the best new chapter of your life...pretty amazing stuff...

without change, you're kinda just floating...in between a the past but not quite into the present yet...and that's when things just get repetitive...change makes things exciting and new and creates opportunities and surprises..

so i guess all i'm saying is that i change is good and it makes the impossible possible

btw, guess what happened today?? it SNOWED...i love it!!!

A little taste of spring

spring and me don't mix well together...first of all it rains too much and i am not very fond of the rain...also, i don't appreciate the stupid geese and ducks coming back and taking over the river...why don't they just permanently move to the south??...and i don't like how the snow melts...when the snow melts, it creates slush and puddles...puddles make my clothes and shoes dirty...i don't like having my shoes or clothes dirtied...and snow melting also means no more skiing for the year...and no more skiing makes me sad:(...and in spring, the sun hardly comes out...so although it is warmer...it is not bright outside...

i love being outside...and in the spring, it sux to be outside so i am stuck inside and quite frankly, that is not much fun...therefore spring is a very depressing season...and i don't like spring

Goals for myself

I've been so unorganized lately and its time i get things sorted out...so i've decided to make a few goals...some are school related, some are life related and some just aren't related to anything...but hopefully i can stick to them

i) reduce hours of msn-msn is the biggest distraction in the world and my reason for lacking sleep...however, i can't just disconnect myself from msn because it is my form of communication with a lot of people...and without msn, i wouldn't be able to talk to these people:)

ii) focus a little more on school-i slack off way to much and get side tracked way to easily...like for instance, i started packing for my trip to kingston (which isn't til 2 weeks) instead of studying for calculus :S

iii) learn to appreciate my family more-being home reminds me how much i love them and how much they care for me...and i should learn to show them how much they mean to me

iv) try something new-whether it's food, a new activity or something else...just wanna get to know the world better..

v) be a little more happy-not that i'm not happy now, but i should be more happy and not think about the unhappy stuff a lot...

hehe..so that's my list at the moment...might add or change a few things later..but yup..so i should get some work done now:P

People and Places and Situations

People: i love the people in my life...whether they bring frustration, happiness, complication, joy or any feeling...cuz without them, i wouldn't be who i am...and lately, i've learned to appreciate them a lot more...

Places: i was in guelph this weekend...been back home a lot this term...it's kinda nice...but the thing is, the more i go home, the more i miss it when i'm here...and it makes it so hard...i like being at home because i'm with my family and i get to hang out with people who i used to...but other thing is, when i go home...it's going home to a place that hasn't changed half as much as i have...and the people there are still stuck in the past...not that it's the past to them, but i guess it is to me...

Situations: i was in a bunch of weird situations this weekend...kinda out of the blue more or less, but good...sometimes you're in a situation where you have to re-open a door that previously took you so much work to close and keep closed...kinda weird analogy there...but i guess it was good...it makes me realize that life changes so fast...

so now, theres a whole bunch of new stuff happening...and everything is pretty good:P

Passion for skiing or passion for passion?

I went skiing the other day and it occurred to me that when I ski, I really ski. 100% ski. My mind is completely focused on the snow, hill, and skiing. Nothing else seems to matter. It feels so amazing.

However, the more I think about it, the more I realize it isn’t the skiing itself that I love. It’s my love for having a passion. This might not make any sense to you, but it makes so much sense to me. I love being able to love something like skiing so strongly. I love loving it so much that I can forget about everything and just focus on it. Not a care in the world. No worrying about the calculus test I have Monday, about where I’ll be next year, about housing crap, about family stuff, or about anything. It’s just me and my passion.

I can only hope that everyone can have a passion as true as mind. Something that takes your mind off everything and leaves you without a care in the world. Something that makes you feel so amazing and wonderful. Something that you know will make you happy.

So I guess all I’m saying is, although I do love skiing, I love more that I love skiing and can be so passionate about it.

New Blog

I'm starting a new blog cuz msn spaces sux and won't let me post any blogs..so yup, welcome!